I have faith you'll make the right choice when the time comes, but if you are going to continue your search for Specter, Basroil 2, know this: He is worth more to me alive than dead.
I will begin making preparations for the unveiling of the worms in your apple very soon. It will likely bring your journeys to an end, but I think you are resourceful enough to handle what is to come.
Paranoid? Were I in your position, I'd feel much the same way.